The Undefined Travel

Feeling the anger

2008-07-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

Feeling agree upon myself . There are promises pending , time is too fast to catch . Still this mind is acting lazy . Searching something fulfilling . The newspapers don't inspire any more .hollow stories there . The mind starts getting fidgety with the books ..

Some thing need to change ? My approach.. Thinking of diving deep into a single subject ...and relate that depth to the associated streams of knowledge...

The path of "Sadhana" and the interruptions

2008-07-22T22:14:00.000-07:00

Self control is where i'm focussing now . The habits take control and I feel desperate to come out of it . To align my activities to the set goals .. day in and day out ... the fight continues .

This week I'm observing a “Sadhana Saptah” The week of penance . The second day is in progress . It is a self effected approach to inculcate discipline to the body and mind . In this age when touching thirty, this things seem a requierment. Success and falures are playing hide and seek there too.
I dream a lot .find way to achieve them , force my self to travel that path. Take time to review that and correct the course if necessery . Hope all the dreams come true .. even other wise the dreams would have done their job of inspiring ...

Now I interacted with a tea vendor making his livelihood by supplying tea to offices . He was not well , down with ulser in stomach , what happens to his family ? He's back with a new hope to proceed . Why Ulser , parents at home warn us to take food on time to avoid that .Why that man have ulser ? He doesn't take Food on time? Why ? He can't afford or he cuts his meal for his family ?

I sit in an air conditioned cabin with my computer , with creating projects intended to help business become intelligent .Can my IT help the person above ?

These questions and more !! a day is the same 24 hours for every one ! When shall I get answers to all these ? Nevertheless i'll keep trying ...

The Stirrings

2008-04-12T19:29:00.000-07:00

I felt like writing a poem today . The panaromic view of life in external and internal in the last few days has been quite resourceful for the mind .

The scattered dots that linked to take a shape are below

Glimpses of success in work and the lax will thereafter,Hide and seek of achievements with deadlines in work and self-discipline in personal life,A view of less previlaged ones, a group of blind with a music band , trying to live a descent life,A decision of buying an expensive magazine,"the Fortune" with question of proper usage of money in the background,An engrossed mind reading the magazine in the bus and its sudden view, (when i raised my head) ; of shades of black tar of road,green lawn in beautified marina beach,brown strech of sand . the dotted groups of peole on it ,immediate sea blue following and blue sky in the distant horizon in a sunny afternoon leading to dusk ,A begger sitting in the middle of an ATM and a milk parlour and watching the crowd in both direction,The difficulty of projecting the money value of technology to the un-initiated , the feel of "too many things to do in too little time" and "the will to do it",The news of scientists preparing a particle acclerator named LHC at an european university CERN to proove the existance God particle and the thoughts of quantum mechanics behaving differently from classical mechanics and all of them being governed by probably undiscovered single all pervasive equation of God .

The dots will grow more ...

Triangle of success

2008-02-21T17:07:00.000-08:00

so many distractions
to keep the hope afloat ,
the will struggles
you do come in repeats
and thoughts prolong far...
i stretch it farer
and awake .

the dawn emerges from dusk
invisible within cubicles
time has its flow
The will runs to keep pace..

the eye steps in with it
the body follows
muscles in it remind the vulnerability
but the will proceeds to a new dawn ..

synchrony of time and will ;
"the love ,in its anticipation"
is the triangle of success

The path under construction

2008-02-04T04:56:00.000-08:00

Ma , the call today was poignant ,The journey seems too tough .The mind is unhelpful . It's fighting hard and where my strengths will come from ?

This needs a guiding hand (which i expect from GOD and living gods) .

Expectations are becoming great enemies . this piece is also a witness .

The days of union are distanced afar again .The uncertainity of careeer moves and moves of TIME has distanced it.the soulmate is assigned but there's distance ,The SMSes are misleading .

Technology can't Translate the whole feelings .

Tomoro's a brighter day and the next minute is a hopeful one ...

Thats for now ... God

...see you in your heights tomoro ..
The higher one from today

Pain of the Idle moments

2008-01-13T06:05:00.000-08:00

In those times where the life knows its responsibilities and have ample time with it but don't wish to work in that direction where does the fault lie ..?

Siddharth says it is in our personality styles ...

But why not get the nector from every work that is assigned ,why the pull of the initial enthuciasm doesn't linger on ...

Probably it is all in the mind . the fight between the mind and the conscience.

All powerful things are good as slaves but extremely bad as Masters ie Money,Mind ...

Will power is of god .God surrendering everything that i say is mine i move.have a prayer for you .Please don't stop giving happiness but ensure that amidst that i don't lose sight of your scerene divinity ....

All in thy Name ..

Tears in your name

2007-11-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

Never knew I'm such controller of my thoughts and the body.The other day tears welled in abundance when i signed something favourite but they vanished as i raised my head to speak to someone nearby .so suddenly . surprised myself there. good experience. no one got a glimpse......Why .. Let them be with me ,and surrendered to thy mighty power .....

They're the best friends preserved for the loneliest of the moments ,neednot be spent in expression of mundane experience ..

Quoting a touchy poem for Tennyson

"Tears, idle tears,
I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair Rise in the heart,
and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy Autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days that are no more. "

Wait for thou's not endless....

Scattered thoughts

2007-11-24T05:14:00.000-08:00

Life's songs remain unrecorded .

the quest for thou remains amiss
in the forest of humanely desires.

The ray of light from thou distant candle
let the thoughts alive...the deviations are verymany.. shall I last..

The tempest is furious ,of this worldly thoughts.
The frequency is fearsome ,of the revisits of Lonelieness

Tomoro is a new hope, the present one will go